AK-47

Even when I’m thirty
my father will still cover my eyes
during sex scenes in movies. When I was
twelve my parents took me to see The World Is
Not Enough long before I was aware of the
objectification of women in James Bond
films and took me out right before
Bond James Bond laid
Christmas and I

knew what happened
it was ridiculously obvious
but the visualization of it was
what they were worried about because
what we don’t see is what we don’t know
no frame of reference is better than a foggy
picture at best and I’ve carried Catholic guilt
holes from the nails in my palms but I am
no savior and just a sinner at best. I’ve
seen the bodies of women

geometric shapes shifting
in pools of oil and I’ve seen the bodies
of women as if they are sand dunes but it
doesn’t help me understand myself any better
and I’m sure I haven’t figured out how we work
in tandem. I’m also sure that the man in the prim
expensive suit with the Omega watch is nothing like
the rest of the men in the real and tangible world
because no man has ever been this consumed
by love and no man would ever shoot
everything up if I died in a
conspiracy.